When Loyalty Is Not

It is amazing the revealations I recieve when my mind is not occupied. I was thinking of the people who claim loyalty to others and things but in the end when examined  the loyalty was not real. Loyalty the action of being loyal is defined as being and remaining faithful to a person or whatever the attention is dedicated to. Last year this time of year, I realized the painful reality that in my life not one man loved me enough to be loyal to me. Hurtful yes but when I began to think about the men in my life including my father, they never knew how to love themselves not to mention anyone else. Life has taught me that I have lived in pursuit of someone loving me enough to put me first. The harsh reality is I was looking for someone to do what I never learned to do myself.